I had a rather productive day yesterday...

Had to mish up and take my little sister to work yesterday at 12pm, and my path took me past KFC, reeeeeally wanted some of that new chicken, and she was keen as, but I said "sorry Tj, no can do, am on a diet" lol the look on her face was priceless.
So took her to work and ran in and grabbed a wee 4 pack of chicken teriyaki sushi.... mmm it was the goods! and quite filling too, so thats good. i slipped though, and brought a V while i was there. Then i went and dropped jayden off at my aunties place so he could go and see trucks & diggers with her & her boy seth. Me & Lo did the boost out to Winton to take daniel his lunch (much to his dissapointment, it was deli sammies hahaha) so he suffered due to my diet yesterday, so i thought.
He got home last night & told me he LOVED the sammies, and they were really nice.
PHEW!
anyways, had sweet & sour pork & rice for tea last night, and then after i had scoffed my plate full, i was bumming around on the TMMB and got a sudden boost of energy so I decided i was going to go for a walk.
Now, i like walking, dont get me wrong, BUT i have issues with walking too far from home and then i get to a point where i cant be fagged walking back hahaha
My car was here at home, Lo had just gone down to bed for the night, and jayden was eating an iceblock when i left so I couldnt text dan and ask him to come get me, so i HAD to walk home.
I felt pretty good, and i walked a fair way, but when i got home (all red/purple faced) Daniel looked at me and said "that didnt take you long babe"
GRRRRR 15 fricken minutes :(
Im really sore today hahaha im soooo unfit compared to what i used to be :( i used to LOVE playing touch, and now i doubt i could even last 10mins, which shows how bad it has gotten.
Ive made a desicion (sp) to loose my weight (40kgs) and then going to join up with a social team again next year. I know i wont have lost the whole 40kgs in a year, but i will be on my way!
Told daniel i was going on another wee walk tonight but he said for me to do something else, like, weights, or my hip hop abs, coz im still quite sick and its raining (awww aint he sweet LOL)
but im thinking of buying a bean.. i just am a bit dubious (sp) of how well they actually work!
will post some pics of my chunky self later on (Liz you inspired me lol)

Feeling good about today!

Lets start from saturday... voting day. Jayden & Daniel went over to his mums (I may have already written about this?) so me and Harlow decided (well, I decided, lol shes 5months old, like she has a say in it!) to go for a walk to find the nearest voting place. Went down to the church on the corner of yarrow & margaret st. Nothing. Walked up Islington St, maybe its at the school? No. Not at the Stadium either. ARRGH! So we walked home, I looked it up on the net, and the nearest one is on Tay st, but I had no idea where! Dan gets home and i zoom off in the car to find this voting place, LOL would have been a 10min walk, if that. Talk about pissed at myself!
Anyways, yesterday is kinda blurry to me, as I was between lappy, kids, washing & bed all day. I CANT BREATHE! So am still on the lemon & honey drinks, gave up wearing a camphor block, as it STUNK!
RIGHT!!! On to today: Im feeling like poo, but good about what my day will bring. Im feeling motovated (sp) Hip Hop Abs is on disk, and I plan on doing that while the kids are snoozing later today. Even brought some yoga pants to celebrate lolz..... They are 3 sizes to big, but oh well! Daniel says I should pick a goal weight I want to get to, or an amount I want to loose, but I just dont know... Since I stopped working at East Road Pets, I have gained 30kg easy, so I definately want to loose THAT much, and maybe get down to 60kg... so i want to loose 40 all up. It makes me sick looking at that number! Thats a big bag of coal.....
I cant lift a big bag of coal, and yet Im carrying it around everyday :(
Today is my day. I have the motivation in disk form, this is the start of a new me!!!

UGH!

So i didnt write on this last night... I feel soooo lethargic since I stopped eating sh*t loads of sugar & stopped drinking a bottle or two of V a day, plus the whole 2 coffee thing.
Kinda just feel like going and buying a big fat box of V and downing the whole lot just to show my body whos really boss, but if I want to show me whos boss, Im just going to have to be a hold out. BAHHHHH!!!!
So I read on someone elses blog that they had d/l a copy of Hip Hop Abs, so when Daniel got home from work, I made him get it for me lol havent put it on disk yet (im a wee-tard when it comes to things like that) so will get him to do it for me tonight.
Been cruising TM for things like treadmills ect to help me out when the weather is shitty like it has been all week. Theres a g2g for signing Kyahs t-shirt at queens park tomorrow, so am contemplating whacking the kids in the pram and walking down, coz its really not that far from here lol
So for tea last night I kinda slipped up a bit... Jaydens sick with a snotty nose, Im getting a snotty nose and a lovely cough and I couldnt be arrrsed cooking again, so Jayden went to Dans parents place for tea and just a change of scenery and when Daniel got home he couldnt be bothered cooking either, so we just had takeaways. Didnt get my battered mars bar like i normally do though, only had a small S&S wontons and a very small amount of chips, as I just felt like total crap. thanks snotty nose, i cant actually taste what i eat now LOL

Wish the weather would come to the party!!!

God damn... so today being the 2nd day of me becoming a heathier person, I was going to plonk the kids in the pram and head out for a few hours, just walking around, seeing what new words I could teach Jayden and let Lo have some nice fresh air. Well, woke up, got Lo's bottle ready and opened the sliding door curtains... SNOW! The ground was covered in it.
So Jayden got up, I got him his weetbix, and had myself a medium bowl of Sultana Bran, with full milk (i WILL NOT change to trim, might as well just put water in my cereal)
Then we hung out, played and all the rest of it. Then the drinking coffee started. I thought if i got a bottle of water out of the fridge, I would just drink that instead, as its right there. But no.
Daniel got home from work, automatically made me a coffee when he made his.
I feel as though when I stopped drinking coke a few weeks ago I upped my coffee intake so I wouldnt start shaking ect from withdrawls, and its just not going to help my situation.
Anyways, tea I had a casserole and some pasta bake with chillis in it HOLY CRAP it was rather hot, good I guess, I gulped down a fair bit of water then lol
Anyways, im just bleating on. Will see how the weather is tomorrow and try walking then!

okey dokey....

so for tea i had 3 bacon & cheese buns with chicken (honey and soy) and some potato salad... i feel kinda sick, as i know, i KNOW i should have jsut stopped after 2.
but nooooo.
Have asked my partner to bring welder home from his work on friday night so he can make me a stand for my boxing bag and then i shall head out to rebel to see if i cant find me some cute boxing gloves so i can get punching.
right, am off to go and get the lounge tidied up so i can chill out & knit some more hats hahaha

PHWOAR!!!!!!!!

Ok, so i went and got me some scales... i figure they go up to 130 kg, so they will most certainly hold me, I will be waaaaaaaay off that! ummm no.
im really repulsed with myself, and a bit shamed out putting my weight on here, but i guess it wont be "real" or very true to me, if i dont.
Cold hard numbers, in black & white, tell me I'm 100kg. On the dot.
I have never been this size, Im utterly disgusted with myself for letting it get this bad.
Cant even do a food diary of what i have eaten today, I havent eaten anything except one Moro Gold, as I have been so full on getting the kids organised and ready to head out to the Dr for Lo's 5month jabs and Jayden to have a geez around the kindy I want to enrol him in.

Well, this has been a long time coming I guess... But a bit of motivation from TMMB has really put it into action, seeing how many other mummies are unhappy with their sizes has made me realise that if they can do it, so can I... I guess its kinda like a online support group to loose our wobbly bits hahaha
I didnt gain any weight during my pregnancy with Jayden, so the scales said, but I got wobbles in places there hadnt been any before.
Its almost like I blinked and got preggy again, and this time I did gain ALOT of weight, and now, 5months on, Im really not happy with my body, not being able to fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes and not feeling comfortable in my own skin.
So, today is my kick in the butt day, where I stop complaining about being a porker, and DO something about it!